Monday, June 1, 2009

CAN'T HEAR MYSELF FOR ALL THE NOISE

Journey to Finding Me. So far it has been a journey. I am constantly looking into my life and how one thing out of the ordinary can throw me for a loop. With an already busy life where is it that I can find the time to work on issues that surface. Lately they have been left out to grow. Issues, left unchecked quickly become problems. Figuring that out in a timely enough matter is always the key.
Taking a step back right now. Back to where I was before. I knew the static would be too loud if I let outside forces in. I am not strong enough right now to handle all the noise. Settling back into the groove I was in before. Where I was comfy and cozy. Is it possible to come back. What happens to the knowledge and experiences you learned in a dificult time. Do they not somehow change you into something else, that just simply saying oh I am going to stop and step back into this place that was oh so good to me. Can that happen? I'm not so sure. Maybe just maybe looking around at my life and the constant mistakes I make trying to live it, I can work on the two steps forward one step back pace. I know that is not the ideal place to be in life. That one step back just may have taught me something about my life that I can learn from. Learning about myself is such a funny thing. I can evaluate you and your problems like nobodies business but left to figure myself out, well it seems to take a while. Trial and errror.
I am back I am feeling better. I think it is time to get back to my blog and clear some of this noise from my life. Smooth sailing for a while at least.

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