On a road trip with my girl to Austin yesterday I had an epiphany. The plan was to go and have this wonderful time reminiscing about our past and visiting places that we had been. We were going to get some of the beloved "My Cupcakes" on Congress. What came out of it for me was that my life is pretty darn great and going back to take a look turned out for me, at least, to be negative. Made me question things I am doing in my life. We almost turned around and went home. Too much static. Having all the ingredients for a happy life already in my basket I don't need to be out there looking for something else. Happiness is at my fingertips and there is no one else or no place else that I can add to this picture that will make it better. I have it all, although it has been much like a Rubik's cube. In the way that figuring out how to get all the sides matching, has been the task. Like everything in life nothing is handed to you and there is work to be done. Reaching out of my basket of goodies for something, anything, nothing would surely ruin the recipe I am making.
Face book, My space is the static I am talking about. Never have been a part of that, never had the desire but recently after hearing much about it I joined. Hooked! Haven't seen nor heard from most of these people in years and years I was excited thinking wow this is fun. Spending more and more time on there than necessary. These things have to go. Fun while it lasted but my life is good and my friends are my friends. If these people were meant to be a part of my life then they would have been. So, goodbye face book.
One very good thing came from this..I found my very best friend from my past. Before I moved to Brenham, before the storm. Talking to her was fabulous and this will be a friendship that remains in my life.
Time to regroup as i think all this static has put me in a place where I am not focused on my path. Setting new goals today. Turning the channel back to reality and nourishing the relationships I have already in place. Me! being the number one focus. Lots of work still to be done on myself. Seems this detour has at least allowed me to quickly evaluate my choices and my life. My life is good,I was so happy to see my home as we returned from our trip.
With my Keep Austin Weird shirt and Cupcakes in tow. OH HOW GOOD THEY ARE!
I was probably more of a downer on this trip than I wanted to be, but my life, and preserving the remains of it to build upon weigh heavy on my heart these days. Oh the mistakes we make and how they come down on you to thump you in the head. Talking out loud about these things in my life are true therapy for me this blog does not replace that. My poor friend and her ears are probably worn down. So happy that we didn't turn around and go home.
