Wednesday, December 31, 2008

GOODBYE 2008

I am happy to be saying goodbye to this hard cold year. I am ready for new beginnings and it seems like the perfect opportunity for me to set my path with a brand new year. Although I try to live my life without regrets, and truly believe that every thing does happen for a reason ,even if you don't understand it at the moment. That, does not make it any easier to experience the bad times that I have endured in 2008. Wash it away...but..should I? Need I forget the pain? Need I forget the teetering on the edge that made me change my life for the better? I don't think I should. For fear of reliving the same mistakes. I couldnt bear it. The results may not be the same and for today they are headed on the right path.
So goodbye 2008. Goodbye all the tears. Goodbye all the fears. Goodbye letting the world pass me by. Goodbye resentment and pain. Tommorrow is a brand new day and I look forward to making my own destiny .
Heres to love and life, friends old and new. Heres to getting up and out and seeing the small piece of world I have been neglecting. Heres to happy children and a happy mama and daddy. I welcome this new year with open arms.
Happy New Year ....welcome 2009

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

LUNCH WITH THE GIRLS

I find it very refreshing to be able to get away for even just an hour and have lunch with my girlfriends. I find it is a part of my life that I neglect. Nourishing my friendships. There is so much to be learned from them. The laughter alone is therapeutic. As I sat at lunch today I was amazed how we are almost all on the same page. Trying to change. All being mothers and wives and all of us having spent most of that time neglecting ourselves physically and emotionally for years on end. It is like we all have had this one moment in our lives that sparked this urgency to do more.

Change...it is sooo hard to do. We get stuck, complacent not knowing how or what to do. Then...one begins the process, you see the transformation and it just becomes an absolute . You HAVE to be a part of it. We all go our separate ways, living our lives, and then months have gone by. One call and it's "Let's have lunch."

So there we sit looking different, feeling different. Never stopped talking. The hour was soo short. I have to make this last, this time spent together, as women on a mission. I feel very strongly about it and want it to be everlasting. All of it, from the weight I have lost and the weight I need to lose, to the love in my life that grows bigger than one can imagine. The old saying is true. You can't love anyone if you don't love yourself.

Here I am today laying it out. I need change! I need to make change happen. It is all important and I now can see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know I could not do this without the help and support of my girlfriend. They are lovely divas. Each one of them so different. They are truly an eclectic group of people that I surround myself with. I am a lucky girl.