Beyond the fog is gratitude

Here I am on the 5th day of Januaury and haven't had a cigarrette since Dec.31.... It was touch and go for a few days but I am starting to feel a lot better and have been keeping myself very busy. Cleaning, raking, excercising all weekend .
It worked! I did not have to eat a bunch of food..which is different for me compared to when I have quit in the past.
I already feel like I can excercise harder and breathe better. I am really trying hard to talk myself into this. Who am I kidding? Do I want to smoke? Uh, Yeah...I think about it a lot. I have kinda been like a crazy woman trying my hardest not to think about it.
So here I am and I can not let smoking consume me. I am vowing to think and talk and blog about more important things in life. Screw cigs. Wasting my time.
I have this beautiful family that loves me and each other. I am crazy about my husband and think he is truly a beautiful man with a huge loving heart. We have children that reflect just that. Very kind ,sincere, honest and of course funny. I love to watch our family as we coexist in our home. For the most part it is a freeflowing event. We all seem to have respect for bounderies and except for a few bumps in the road I would have to say that I think we are all friends and love one another very much.
Gratitude is the word that comes to mind. I am soo grateful for them and that we can go through all these storms of life and come out on the other side changed but not scarred. Grateful for what we have and carry no resentment with it.